The Seventh Promise
“Self-seeking will slip away.”
The madness of our addiction knew no bounds. It didn’t seem to matter to us if our decisions were hurting others, and we remained blind to the suffering we were creating for ourselves. All we cared about was getting our own way; constant self-seeking was our whole existence.
It was our sense of entitlement that blinded us to the needs of others. Our rights were more important than the rights of others and we became ‘right fighters’ in defense of our own wants and wishes. Our wants and needs came first because we were “numero uno.” Being asked to give up our addiction was an invasion of our right to live as we wished.
“Leave me alone… it’s none of your business!” we would say defensively whenever we were challenged to quit. Whenever the topic of addiction came up in conversation we would quickly change the subject and try to avoid yet another confrontation. “Why should I?” we thought to ourselves. “I have needs, and I’m going to make sure I get them met.”
As we began to live a positive sobriety, we awoke to the real world. We were no longer separate – like an island – but connected to those around us. There was a growing awareness and an increasing response to the needs of others. No longer could we just live in isolation where we spent our days chasing our own selfish pleasures. We had turned 180 degrees away from our own obsessions in order to face the reality of a world in need.
Self-seeking is a path leading to nowhere, emptiness and frustration. Once we are spiritually ‘awakened’ we can choose something better: A life of meaning and purpose. And once on that path of spiritual progress, our self-seeking becomes a thing of the past; it simply slips away.