As a child I fantasized about who and what I wanted to become.
The sky was the limit. I allowed myself to imagine becoming a thousand different things. Some of them were typical:
- A cowboy
- A fireman
- A teacher
- An artist
- A rock star
I could go on – but you get the idea. You probably had similar dreams.
We wanted to become like the people we admired. We wanted to become like those we looked up to. We dreamed about becoming someone of significance.
But the older we got, the less likely it seemed we would grow into any of the dreams we had when we were children.
Lately, I have come to realize that in order to become – to undergo any transformation – I must learn to accept who I am. I must begin where I am right now.
I am an addict. There’s no denying it. And no amount of wishing it otherwise will make it go away. It is part of my truth. And it is where I must begin. I am an addict.
We addicts are learning to accept who we are. There’s no point in denying it. Denial kept us locked in the very thing we couldn’t accept.
If you are an addict, are you still in denial about it? Do you say you are an addict, but still live in addiction? Are there ways you live your life that reveal you are still in denial?
Learn to accept who you are first. It’s the first step of your recovery.