I was stuck in a rut.
I didn’t know I was stuck until I tried to move on. Digging myself out of the hole I was in – the hole that I dug for myself – proved to be impossible.
The more I tried to get out, the harder it got. The harder it got, the more I became angry and depressed. I found myself just spinning my wheels until I exhausted myself emotionally.
Trying to kick a sexual addiction is no small task; trying to kick any addiction is far beyond the ability of any one person.
I wanted to beat my addiction all on my own. And I convinced myself that I could somehow do it – but not today. Maybe tomorrow. I had no idea what I was up against.
An addiction is like a 300 pound gorilla; you are in the ring trying to wrestle it to the floor. What do you think the chances are you will win?
It wasn’t until I joined a 12 Step fellowship that I began to see how it’s done. I learned that I could gain strength from the other members. And it was there I found God’s power and grace.
But I had to ask for help. I had to admit defeat and reach out for assistance. A common phrase in 12 Step circles is: “You alone must do it; but you must not do it alone!”
If you think you can go it alone – think again. But if you are prepared to do whatever it takes, then you are prepared to get the help you need.
Are you going to climb out of the rut you are in, and move on? Are you in it to win it?