Vigilance: Part II
As I worked the steps, freedom from bondage to self came to me. I was granted a spiritual awakening; and a light was now shining in my darkened soul. But it was up to me to stay on track. Steps ten and eleven represent the sixth principle of the freedom of desire.
“Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.”
“Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for us, and the power to carry that out.”
Maintaining vigilance to all the steps will ensure that you remain on track and stay focused. For the addict, this is so important; once the first nine steps have been completed it’s often tempting for the recovering addict to think the work is done, and leave the program.
But that is what steps 10 and 11 are for: To keep the recovering addict focused on continual healing and recovery. Like I said earlier, this race is not a one hundred meter dash, but a full blown marathon!
What sometimes happens in the life of a recovering addict could only be classified as a departure from step one – the first principle of recovery: Powerlessness. Recovery is not based on our power, but on the power of God, our Higher Power. As soon as you think you now own it, you have lost it.
“For it is by grace you are saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast…” Ephesians 2:8
If you try to remain sober in your own strength you are in trouble. Trying to control everything on your own is what got you into trouble in the first place. Don’t be lulled into believing that you can do it on your own steam; remind yourself every single day that you are powerless over your condition as a human being.
But let me remind you again that – just because you are powerless – you are not helpless! There is a lot you can do, and must do; a great deal about which you must be vigilant. Happiness is a choice, and getting what you truly desire is a choice. By your thoughts and actions, you will show to the world the choices you have made.
So what are these choices that you should make? What must you be so vigilant about?