As I consider the New Year ahead of me, I am struck with two thoughts:
- What will become of me?
- What are the possibilities?
Two emotions, really. Both in opposition to each other. “What will become of me?” is fear. A combination of past regrets and anxiety over what might be repeated. But thinking about the possibilities is quite exciting, exhilarating.
I can choose to dwell on the past; and I can easily obsess about the future. But reviewing past failures won’t help me to stay sober because then I will begin to question my resolve to stay sober. In fact, it will lead me back to where I was before – lost in addiction.
On the other hand, I can also choose to dwell on the possibilities, and look forward to better days, successful days.
The difference between the two is ‘this present moment.’ What do I choose to do? What do I choose to think about? If I naval gaze about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow I quite literally live in these two make-believe eternities that don’t exist – except in my mind. In effect, I live in fear and invite death into my experience.
When I ask myself, “What are the possibilities?” I can remain in this present moment where all things are positive and real. In so doing, I invite life into my experience.
Today, I choose life. And that’s why I choose to live ‘one day at a time.’