Do you have inward strength?

When I was in my second year in high school, I joined the weight training club.  Most of these guys were seniors who had been lifting weights for 3 – 4 years.  And you could tell.

 By the time I reached my senior year I was looking stronger – bigger muscles with greater definition.  You could say I was looking quite ‘buff’!

 I hadn’t lifted any ‘emotional weights’ at that point in my life and, consequently, had very little inward strength.  I counted on others to do the heavy lifting:  Like worrying about my welfare. 

 I was in no hurry to accept responsibility for anyone in this world – let alone myself. 

 It wasn’t until I graduated from college, got a job, got married and became a father… that I realized what responsibility involved.  All of a sudden, I cared.  And the weight of the world – along with all my responsibilities – had fallen on my shoulders.

 It was time to start lifting some emotional weight, and I felt unprepared for the task.  Even small weights were too much.  I wasn’t coping well with my new station in life:  Work, marriage and fatherhood.

 In the background, my addict was doing push-ups the whole time. Consequently, my addiction certainly grew to much bigger proportions taking up more of my time, energy and money.  It was my escape from life and from all the emotional weights that seemed too heavy to bear.

 The thing of it is:  The weights were getting heavier and heavier, and I was growing weaker and weaker.

 It wasn’t until I got into recovery that I began to get stronger inside.  The task of facing my addiction head on by dealing with my fears and resentments has made me a stronger person – emotionally.

 Learning to ‘let go’ is now my weight training program.  And I believe that I’m beginning to see some results.  My emotional and decision-making muscles are much stronger now.

 What about you?  Do you have inward strength?

 If you are in recovery, hopefully you’re discovering that God is doing for you what you could not do for yourself.  And you’re getting stronger – inwardly stronger.