I am your addiction

I hate meetings.  I hate Higher Power.  I hate you.  I hate anyone who has a recovery program.  To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and suffering…

Allow me to introduce myself:  I am your addiction.

I am cunning, baffling, and powerful.  I will kick your ass.  I’ve killed millions and I’m proud of it!  I don’t care if you lose your freedom.  I don’t care if you lose your health, or trust, or any damn thing.  I don’t care about you.  I don’t care if you get kicked out of your house.  I don’t care if you lose your job, or have your car repossessed.  I don’t care if you wrap your car around a tree.  There will always be someone to pick up right where you left off.  I don’t care about you.

But I love to pretend.  I love pretending that I am your friend and lover.

Remember in the beginning when using was fun?  How you could count on me to deliver the feeling that you were looking for?  I have given you comfort, have I not?  I am so cunning, baffling and powerful; and you don’t stand a chance.

So what’s going on in your life?  Are you losing your family, your job, or your freedom?  Are you having a hard time getting to sleep at night?  Do you have a court date in the near future?  What’s your P.O.’s name?

Are you peeing in a little cup?  Are you having a hard time finding a job because of me?  And you really think I give a damn about you?  All I care about is you being my servant.  I need to be fed to survive.  And survive I will, right?

I hate more than just you.  I hate those who work a 12-step program.  These people have learned to shut me up.  Oh I’ll still be there – I’m just not in control for the time being.  But as soon as one of them let’s down their guard, I’m back in business.

How about you?  Do you have what it takes to shut me up?  It takes work.  It takes effort on your part to work a 12 step program.  Your program will keep you free from the disease of active addiction because it makes one promise:  If you work the steps, go to meetings, and follow simple direction from your sponsor you’ll never have to use again!


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