I’m a procrastinator.
“Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow?” I say to myself.
In high school I habitually put off what I should have been doing (like studying) in favor of what I’d rather be doing (watching TV). What was important got postponed till the last minute.
Needless to say, I got poor marks.
When I began college, my procrastinating worsened. My studies soon took a back seat to sex addiction. I spent every available minute outside of my classes in sexual fantasy, voyeurism and porn.
Procrastination had become a way of life for me.
The only thing that didn’t get postponed was my sexual acting out. Fantasy could last all day. And my sexual urges were given instant gratification.
In recovery I still find myself procrastinating. Even though the compulsive sexual acting out has stopped, there are things that I avoid doing – things I’d rather do tomorrow.
Are you a procrastinator? Are you forever putting things off until “tomorrow”?
The 12 step program is a recipe for action. You must take action. Those who procrastinate never finish the Steps.
Are you still working the steps? How long has it been since you started? Are you stuck on Step 4? If you’re stuck, you’re procrastinating. And I understand why you’re putting things off…
You’re afraid to move forward. And it’s okay to feel afraid. Just don’t let it keep you stuck.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other… one day at a time.
“Until the pain of remaining in your addiction becomes greater than the pain of letting it go, you will never move forward”