Step 12 mentions a ‘spiritual awakening’ in the big book of AA: “Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts who still suffer, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.”
What is this spiritual awakening? Is it a pink cloud? A state of euphoria? A feeling of ‘oneness’ with the Universe?
Perhaps. But whatever the emotional state that accompanies this spiritual awakening, there are definitely some outward, measurable effects that happen in the life of an addict.
- A recovered addict’s life is transformed from insanity to recovery. The state of continual chaos changes (sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly) to a state of serenity and clarity.
- A recovered addict’s personality is changed from narcissistic to selfless. There is less arrogance, more humility. Less egocentric behavior, more giving back.
- Obviously, the life of a recovered addict is characterized by a commitment to sobriety. Gone are the obsessions and the compulsions. The recovered addict is free of continual ‘acting out.’
- A recovered addict is free of shame – the shame cycle – that holds the person in a painful loop of using over and over the same drug(s) of choice.
- The recovered addict feels more worthwhile, more loveable, and more useful.
- The fully recovered addict moves from meaninglessness to purposefulness.
The spiritual awakening happens on the inside. Some feel happy. Some feel content. Almost all are grateful. There is nothing to say how you will feel if you experience a spiritual awakening. You are who you are. And you will experience it in your own unique way.
Just know that it will effect your thinking and your behavior. And you will never be the same… ever.