In order to gain sobriety and recovery, you must commit yourself to the task. But where does the willingness to commit come from?
As we said last week, it all begins with the desire to do so…
Commitment is a result of step one: “We admitted that we were powerless…
It is simply making the decision to begin where we are… powerless. From that point forward, we base all our future decisions on our addicted and powerless state.
It may seem like such an obvious point. But without this decision – to admit to your powerlessness – you don’t have a “snowball’s chance in hell” of ever making it through the other eleven steps and still remain sober.
You must ask yourself the question: “Do I want to live or do I want to die?” It’s your choice. As an addict, you are already dead; but by admitting to your powerlessness you are saying “Yes!” to life.
I have a close friend in AA who struggled for years trying to stay sober. It was painful to watch him wrestle with his triggers. He had will power, and he had determination. But the problem for him stemmed from his denial that he was powerless over his addiction to alcohol. There existed – in the back of his mind – the hope of becoming ‘normal’ again.
He really wasn’t sold on the idea that he was absolutely powerless, and hoped for the day when he could drink responsibly like a ‘normal’ person.
After several relapses and a brush with death, he finally admitted that he was hopelessly addicted – powerless – and eventually committed to the program completely. And for you in SLAA, I can promise you this: If you are not completely convinced of your powerlessness to your compulsive sexual behaviors, you will continue to struggle with keeping your bottom lines.
No one can make that decision for you.
Either you are ready to commit, or you are not. Jesus Christ once said: “No one, having put his hand to the plow and looking back… is fit for the kingdom of God.”
In other words, you can’t drive a car while looking in the rear view mirror! If you plan to walk the ‘straight and narrow’ you had better keep your focus on the road ahead.
Desire is a forward gaze. Looking over your shoulder will kill that desire. Remain in your desire to move forward so you can stay committed to your bottom lines.